As I got out of the car and walked into the airport, it was clearly one of those uncontrollable cries, and I thought I should probably wait to go through security. I had to sit down on a bench and wait it out.
It's not that I didn't want to come home, I love my Boulder life. The tears were more about my Bail experience having had an impact on me that was so profound it was hard to let go. Bali's vibration had so gracefully met me exactly where I needed to be, in order to SEE and EXPAND.
Upon returning to Boulder after my 2-week inner pilgrimage, amidst the excitement of spring, seeing my kids, friends, and those I love, there has been an uncomfortable feeling of being stuck, stagnant and outdated with how things used to be done in my life. In the past we have called this a retreat hangover or re-integration process. This one kicked my yogini butt.
Something HAS to change for my inner and outer alignment to occur. Anything that isn't feeling aligned energetically seems be giving me a terrible headache.
Since being back, I have been sitting with this... waiting, listening, hoping for what needs to shift to become obvious - and if you know me, you know this waiting is not my favorite pastime.
I crave for this beautiful multidimensional insight that came to me in Bali to now emerge and apply to how I live each day, personally and professionally.
I have tried to sit down to write about it so many times...but nothing was coming...until today.
All my personal inquiry, hours of meditation, powerful kundalini sessions, and time with myself, has finally moved some energy and created some clarity. I have been recalibrating my Bali bliss into my new Boulder buzz.
It turns out … something in me has expired.
It is perspective, and the old ways of approaching life, business and health. It is the muscling through life to make things work, burning myself out in a desperate attempt to keep all the balls in the air, and still be able to smile as I pass you by in the grocery store.
I am so passionate about what I do every day, and how I live this blessed life, but it is time for the feminine to guide me, to take over, and to provide a flow and a grace that eases my system so that I get filled back up instead of drained by my day-to-day.
I live at one with my mind, body and spirit connection. I have to listen to my wisdom, and the ever present goddess guiding me. Any place where I am not LISTENING has become so loud I can barely stand it.
I see how my outdated and limiting beliefs can keep me stuck, and that nothing can change without the power of my thoughts and the divine feminine supporting me.
I see how it is time for a new paradigm that outdates SO many of the myths about food, women, and pleasure so that we can individually find our pathway to THRIVE in a mind-body-spirit approach to both health and living. It can be felt as subtle yet profound and magnificent.
Over the coming weeks, you will notice some changes with the way I do business, what I am putting forth, and what I really hope to bring into the world. It is energetic and gentle...I am still in the process of unfolding how this will look to the outside world.
I know for my work to be as potent and as powerful as I need it to be for my own fulfillment, my clarity of heart and grace has to be 100%.
Thankfully, I have some amazing people coaching and guiding me on this incredible journey of discovering what is coming next. I promise to keep you posted.
With spring in full force, expansion happening all around us, I feel more than ready to step forward into my own creative potential and stay in synch with what is blooming all around us.
Care to step into the current with me? Let's expand, widen, create and live our best lives together!
The best is yet to come.